The Sandy Hook Elementary shooting happened 3 days ago. I've avoided the news channels on TV as well as the internet. I just couldn't watch the details. I have a 4 1/2 year old, this event was just more than I could handle. I'm sure my reaction was similar to many other parents, shock, tears, numbness, the feeling that you are just going to throw-up. Questions with no answers.
I've read a few things on FB, posts from friends, some news updates, but mostly I just avoided it all. I cried, played with my son, hugged him about every 10 seconds and cried some more.
Finally this morning, I forced myself to look at NBCNews and read the names of the victims. I looked at the faces of those sweet, innocent children and the faces of those brave school administrators. They are now all together, in heaven.
I'm still searching for a way to help myself deal with this tragedy. I read something about how the media goes on and on about the shooters and that is the name you always remember. I also read about how at one church the pastor had all the victims names on the alter and asked the worshipers to select one of the victims and pray for that victim and their family for an entire year. Well in this case, I choose to remember the victims, all of them. I created a monthly prayer list, once victim for every day of the month. I added a few people after the 27 victims, because there are so many people that need our prayers.